LISTS
FAVORITE THINGS
sitting at my desk
watering my flowers
music in headphones
absurdity & novelty
WISH LIST
new towels
bread knife
new dish cloths
cotton sheets
THINGS I COLLECT
national geograpics
vtg stickers
feathers
postage stamps
MORNING ROUTINE
tend to dog
make bed
empty dishwasher
morning pages
get dressed
OBSERVATIONS (YOU ARE HERE)
the sound of dog nails on hardwood floor
crawling into a freshly made bed
waking up without an alarm
anything cold
laying in the sun
HOME AND GARDEN
new roof
fix foundation
repave driveway
replace bathroom light
mulch flower beds
add soil to greenstalk
ARBITRARY CLOTHING RULES
deep winter color palette
no pockets on front chest
crop shirts fit best
buttons and pockets must be functional
muddy colors preferred
no overalls ever
pass on navy blue
small prints
maxi or mini, no midi
r.i.p. skinny jeans
oversized nothing
ADDICTIONS
listlessness
social validation
cigarettes
sugar/chocolate
wine
HABITS TO QUIT
watching tv in bed
chewing on my lip
goblin noises
doom scrolling
following the life of strangers on the internet
WEBSITE IDEAS
bookshelf layout
cringy composition book
computer room?
typewriter something: poems?
more widgets on bulletin board
WHAT'S IN MY BAG
drivers license
credit card
coupon for thrift store
insurance card
hand sanitizer
4 reusuable shopping bags
car/house keys
measuring tape
chapstick
sunglasses
hand fan
SONGS I CAN PLAY ON UKULELE
Radiohead - Creep
Mazzy Star - Fade Into You
Carpenters - End of the World
Leonard Cohen - Hallelujah
The Beatles - Octopus' Garden
Tracy Chapman - Fast Car
REGRETS
saying that one thing that one time
all my tattoos
nose piercing
gauging my ears
anytime i lie
cocaine
ALTER EGOS
goth journal girl
sexy house wife
confident business woman
doting daughter
manic pixie dream girl
DOG NICKNAMES
mr. bear
bubby
bubs
honey
sweet boy
THINGS I KNOW ABOUT MY DAD
he liked to read
stephen king was his favorite
he wore glasses
he knew how to fix cars
he was adopted
he smoked a lot of pot
he made people laugh
he was a marine
he was a bad student
he drove assault amphibious vehicles
he left
MEMORIES
washing the windows on the family car
playing with the hose in the front yard
the smell of every boy i've kissed
city lights at night
walking home from school
jumping off the diving board
seeing the full moon for the first time
riding my bike at dusk
getting bit by fire ants
having sex in the woods
the beach at night
CELEBRITIES I'VE BEEN TOLD I LOOK LIKE
tatiana maslany
rosie perez
helena bonham carter
jenna ortega
jessica alba
nancy from stranger things
THINGS I DON'T REGRET
moving away
listening > talking
being weird sometimes
admitting when i'm wrong
going to college
mushrooms
HOBBIES
hula hoop
ukulele
juggling
drawing
gardening
PET PEEVES
tvs left on
scraping sounds
unsafe drivers
peanut butter
wind on my face
ASPIRATIONS
yoga
paint
sewing
figure draw
meditation
FAVORITE SNACKS
apple, nuts, dates
orange and tea
chips and salsa
handful of olives
tiny cucumbers w/ hummus
baby carrots
cashew yogurt w/ jam
hot & spicy peanuts
chocolate pretzels
pretzel rods
cherries & chocolate
LISTS TO MAKE
band name ideas
nice things people have done for me
things I like about myself
things I'm good at
meals I want to make
things I wish I were better at
hardest moments in life
bucket list
date ideas
evening routine
MORNING MEDITATIONS
• I cannot change the past but I can always do my best here and now.
• I do one thing at a time and pay full attention to everything I do.
• I cultivate silence and control the compulsion to interpret and qualify.
• Happiness is always here and now.
• Perfection is an illusion created by the mind. Instead I just try to do my best.
• I practice kindness towards myself and others.
• I’m confident, I’m relaxed, everything is fine.
UNPOPULAR OPINIONS
• you don't have to have an opinion on everything
• all pranks are mean
• i have enough guy friends
• drinking with a lot of people isn't fun
• we should stop blessing people after they sneeze
• people shouldn't travel so much
• painted brick houses are ugly
• tarot cards, crystals, and essential oils are a marketing ploy to take the disposable income of women.
MILLION DOLLAR IDEAS
zoo made up completely of dogs dressed up as exotic animals
app like rover but for someone to go somewhere with you, so you don't have to go alone
DEADJOURNAL CODES
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WEDDING VOWS
To love is not to possess or to own or imprison or to lose oneself in another. Love is to join and celebrate to walk among and together. To find laughing freedom that normal isolation does not permit. To finally be who we really are. To be perfectly oneself and perfectly joined to another.
I pledge myself to you and take you as my husband, to trust appreciate you, to support, comfort, and strengthen you, through all life’s joys and sorrows, to be faithful and loving, through good times and bad, from this day forward.
IMAGINARY ME
speaks another language
can cook w/o a recipe
knows how to garden
can name trees by their leaves
goes for daily walks
knows how to dress
is a painter
know when to shut up
eager listener
good sleeper
avid reader
friends to neighbors
great gift giver
vegetarian
has a cat
NOTES FROM CALL W/ MOM
Grandma Emalda
100 years old, from Batang
sells fish on her head
grandpa's mom's sister
has radar, can tell when mom is in town